“WHY… WHY ARE YOU HIDING IT?!”
What the actual fuck?
I’m seriously scared of Eto sometimes. Is such extensive torture even necessary? I don’t even like Kanae, and yet I’m praying that he retains some of his sanity at the very least. Eto has been with him for, what, two weeks now? I can’t imagine what it must have been like for Takizawa and his two years – but I have my suspicions that he went through something different, as presumably the aims of Aogiri differ with each torture victim. For Kaneki, he was tortured simply for fun by Yamori – it was designed to end with him being killed, so it’s reasonable to think that Kaneki could still function as an individual with his mind relatively intact after his experiences. For Takizawa, the goal was most likely to produce an effective half-ghoul soldier for Aogiri, and so removing his sense of pain and most of his sanity was what they chose to go for. For Kanae, it sounds as if Eto is trying to erode his loyalty and manipulate him at the same time – but why sew his eyes and mouth shut? And what’s up with all the clocks? It honestly reminded me of that one panel at the end of the original manga, when Kaneki lies on his back with both of his eyes having been gouged out by Arima. I suppose her kagune sticking out of his back is her way of transplanting more power into him somehow? I don’t even know why she’s decided to do this, though – what she’s telling him is that he should go and kill Haise if he wants to be truly treasured by Tsukiyama again. So does she want Haise dead? And most importantly, wasn’t Kanae already on the brink of doing that anyway?
Haise is going through a personal crisis of his own – or rather, it might be more apt to say that he’s starting to reveal his inner conflicts to the people around him. I think this is really significant – Haise is now saying that he is not Haise. He’s asking himself who he is, where he came from – and calling himself the ghoul who killed Amon. I can’t help but think back to the very recent chapter when Touka claimed he was happier as he currently was – maybe he is, but only relatively, and on top of that his happiness levels are falling on a per-chapter basis. Haise isn’t quite right when he accuses Akira of ‘hiding’ stuff from him, though. At least, she’s not doing it out of malice. For argument’s sake, let’s say she told him everything, and he remembered his previous life as Kaneki. The issue is that the CCG’s tolerance level for Haise reverting into Kaneki is very low. Remember when he fought Nishiki? Hirako was going to kill him if he couldn’t be subdued. So Akira choosing not to tell him anything is for his own good – it’s in his best interests that he learns as little as possible, both for his quality of life and his very life itself.
I think something big is going to happen soon on the Haise and Kaneki front. Not least of all because Ishida tweeted a drawing of an older Rize with a new character design – we know how much he likes his parallels between the original manga and :re, and Chapter 46.5 was about Rize and Banjou. Next week is Chapter 46.
As for the raid, I’m glad they’re taking into account the economic implications of destroying the Tsukiyama group, but what I’m more confused about is why they don’t just run away. Mirumo is clearly aware that their secret has been compromised, and like with the Anteiku raid the sheer scale of the operation means that there’s little chance of Rose winning. But unlike the Anteiku raid, Mirumo and the rest of the family can’t be feeling the same sense of responsibility and remorse that Yoshimura did. Like with what Yomo did with Hinami and Touka, Mirumo is asking Matsumae to get Tsukiyama to safety. So why isn’t everyone else running, too? Are they not able to, even with kagune walls? Is it too late to, even now?